days past. things fade. new things come arise. fake smiles and laughters. maybe its obvious cos ppl kept on asking. anger management getting haywire. this is hw my life is. once there, now is gone. wad happen ? idk.

my everyday in sch seems meaningless now. everythng getting all drab and dull. nth is exulting at all. its gd dat exams drawing near, or i swear i'll be skipping schs now and then. imma just let days past randomly, so time becomes quicker dat way. maybe i just took it too seriously. i shouldnt have, i admit.

but i couldnt face u anymore. each time i thought bout u guys, i feel as if im a spoil brat. the extra one. get the facts rite adira, ure nth. this feeling,, has been disturbing me since the sep holiday. dk why i get too carried away. should i just avoid like i used to ? its the only way even though things stay the same.

weird aint it. crackers, donuts, bball, movie, obs, thats it. each night, i thot about it before getting to sleep. panda eyes is the result. i tried avoiding looking at u like i used to. i tried stopping turning back in class. i tried ignoring ur smses, hoping i'd forget everythng. it hurts :'(

im sorry dat i hv nth much to say to u when u talk to me earlier. i just dk how to express my feelings in words ..