well hello. idk why today kinda no mood. but loads to say.

k here goes. morng met up wif jan and nas. go eat breakfast at mac. passed nas the boots i promised then walk2/sit2 arnd lot1 cos of some reasons. she went sch late arnd almost 9. me and jan went straight to stadium for 100m. idk why dis year's national felt like not exciting. lose interest i think. k whatever. relax ishraq. there's alws a next year. he was damn upset cos 1 more position can get thru semis ald. idk how to pujok lah seh. ok saw MrEmo there. he walked, i melted. we talked, just a good 7 words altogether. why the heck am i counting small stuffs like dis ? goddamn. i miss u fucking loads, do u knw dat ? haix. u've changed, not like the old harris ive knew anymore. we've been tgt for an almost fucking 2yrs, yet u forgotten bout me so fast yet so easily. whereas im here, still faithfully waiting for u like one idiot. i admit. it was love at first sight. and i started telling my friends i like u back then when we were still a pathetic 11 years old, the year u just transfered to our primary sch. but now, u had so many diff lives wif diff girls, i realised im the worst for u. i keep telling ppl, as long as ure happy, im happy enough. but wad matters now actually is my inside. its burning. i knw ur personality. everybody else knws. frm last time, u often talk big, just bcos ure rich, that u alws hurt me. u forever hung up the phone first each time we fought. i was hurt, but didnt take it to heart. not even the slightest bit, so dat i dun hv to part wif u. i'm letting everythng out here. isit worth waiting for u for this whole 3 yrs or so ?..

since pri sch days, ive alws like

the way u walk, even tho u looked like one sick person.
the way u run, even tho it looks kinda ugly.
the way ur hair looks, even when ure bald.

the way u played basketball, cos ure "kaki bangku"

the way we wore our bags wif the same brand; Shayer.
the way ur spects were. i rmbred it was 'snoopy'.

the way u kept saying u look ugly without spects.
the way u wore dat very small, tight pri sch shorts.
the way u talked. ur voice was very sweet, like girl.
the way we passed love letter everyday.
the way u secretly went inside my classrm to put stuffs u bought for me
while we were having PE.
the way we met inside the library every recess, even tho we didnt talked.
the way u spelled my dad's name wrongly.
just everythng.

ive been all these while, rejecting cos of waiting. for the one and only, Supremo.
that was my first love, a love at first sight.