hey ppl.
can you believe it dat ystd was d last day of semester one ?? gaaahhhh. but stupid thing is, theres loaaads of supp class needa attend. fucktard.

ystd was a total rush lah. and yeahs, i pon-ed cca again (: who cares. hmms. aftr dat bus-ed hm met up wif a friend. k hope today isnt a boring day. grndma coming here. and of cos, needa flip thru mdrasa books. tmr taking 6 papers ! pathetic isnt it ?
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last words frm me,

went lepak wif nas and atikah aftr soccer. came hm kinda late. k nth much to say except for

hellooooooo (:
today boleh tahan gerek.
skipskips.
mr next-top-model-teacher some sort of passed out ? walao. scary .. frm our class can see his face. darn pale seh. i soooo pity him. heard he was sick and didnt even hv breakfast or lunch today ? was arnd 1300hrs plus when i realise he was lying/sitting on d chair at d corridor outside 3/7 . kesiaaaaaaaan seh ! although he didnt teach us or wad, idk why i became like sooo soooo worried seh. until i block marcus's view and kena shout. lol. and yeah, marcus was damn cute lah the face. haha. only me and sarah saw it :x k back to topic, hmms. got paramedic come carry him on stretcher then can see got wire2 connected to his nose :(

ok enough. hmms. whole day i sleep lah, except for recess(: and geog. was like almost 5hrs throughout sch hours ? lol. then aftr sch, go comlab then teman daddy play guitar at foyer. make sure u sing dat song during ccks idol k ? hmms. aftr dat go change wif jaws. walao ! dumbfounded seh when see 1st floor toilet all d cubicles no door ! is d renovation thingy done or d whole idea was supposed to be lydat ? -.-

thenthen during training, slack here and there wif jana. sape mau layan itu coach .. bt coach pandian worst. pfft. go die lah. aftr dat ask nas to come bck sch. ride on my bike bt arnd sch area only. hahs. waited for ain. then skali whole band guys come out, walked wif them uh. went to mac wif nas, farha, raiyan andand atikahh (: . bla3. bus-ed to int wif nas and atikah. walked to mrt wif atikah. u very nice lah (: . so caring one. hahs.

okok. excited for tmr lah seh ! :D
GIRL'S SOCCER is back. yeahs ! but dis time with sec1 and 2s . gerek rite ? :D
k ah. till here. gdluck for your report book grades k adira ? (:

ps. i now admit dat MR EDMUND ONG cum Mr next-top-model-teacher, is indeed hot ! hehes. he looked so the malay-ish (;

okay gotten back almost all results, except for eng. hmms. ALL either border line or teros fail. cool rite ? :D
even mt paper pon hancur. pape lah. mcm i care gtu .. cntinue ur gd job kay adira ? -.-
past few days quite ok. ystd go lepak wif raiyan, leeyana, haifaa, farha n nas. k our childhood time came to life ! hahs. den nas came my hse, we do masak2 experiment xD . bongkar fridge here and there. whoa. i dun believe my hse got quite loads of bahan2. lol. k enough.

today, great. went sch by bas-ikal. lol. wif nas. get physics result. 26/50 (: border again. i'm soo not being myself. dun often get dis kinda results. wad telah happen, idk k (:
hmms. I WANT GO WATCH CONGKAK LAHHHHH ! wad seh .. they watching at 7.40 , and im stuck here in my hse. pathetic. k dunwan cntinue mocking. justnw bus-ed hm by 188. walk to bustop frm sch, skali got khairyll and firdaus lah seh. mcm dating gtu. haha. khairyll kept on disturbing me wif firdaus -.- . shut up la youuu. hahs. den took same bus wif firdaus. and oh ! khairyll very sweet can ? hahs. i almost inside d bus ald, he still can shout my name den wave like nobody's business. funny :D

wellwell, going off balek kampong wif d whole maternal cousins tmr morning -.- . i excited2 thot today skali tmr .. wth. nvm. will as usual, take d position as minah burger dwn there. but i enjoy loads lah k. hahs. mum say she bringing us go massage place. DAMNN. i need a goooood massage frm dk when (: great.
want buy my dream sch shoes there. lol. dream on k adira ? (:

k, will be back on monday evening. dun miss me kay ? whatever .
will update soon.
happy vesak day to those who celebrate it (:

yeahs, live life to the fullest. i'm striving, yet with much strugglings. ppl dun knw why im living. i dun even knw it myself. dun feel like talking much. and yeahs, understand these words i composed myself ..

My days are filled with anguish and pain.
My nights are engulfed with an endless strain.
Through the day I search for a way to end the feeling of emptiness in my life.
Pretending to be happy in the day, fighting very hard to strive.
But then night comes and reality cuts me sharp like a knife.
For it is at night I realize I have accomplished little in my years.
For it is night, even i now realize, is the one i fear.
For it is night, which i thought, my eyes nvr again will open and shall hv no more tears.
For it is night, which i felt, my life is now at the utmost end rear.
I'd close my eyes tonight, and hope, there'll be a tmr waiting for me, each and every day.
This, i'll vow and shall continuously to god i'll pray.
I do have hope to experience more of joyous days in my future.
Dear god, i need courage to overcome dis life's fractures.
Grateful i'd be if you could just give me my everyday.
For me to just accomplish my little heart desires,
And to end my life with beautiful love stories, which are now left astray.


ps. to someone out there, please remove me frm getting invited to ur pb ..

today nth much. went religious class. ok i miss my kda loaaaaads lah kn. refering to nur hamidah binte muhd zaini (:. ustaz kept on asking me irrelevant qns. i thot i did smth wrong seh. hmm. tmr emaths paper 2. like shit only. havent study. lols. ape-apean lah k ? sooo not into maths. if i were to hv brains like banana, kn senang hidop aku. haha.

and oh hw happy am i, vanderez treating me watch movie dis thurs. cool (:
and to anyone out there, mind accompanying me to ndc dis coming tues ?

hmm ok better get going. needa flip thru emaths stuffs. how pathetic -.-

today gerekk (: endure my long story k ? :D
hmm. woke up roughly 9. make callings here n there. at 12 blah frm opah's hse off to meet nas. made new ezlink, as mine just lost a few days back. cilake .. she also make cos her current ezlink like somekind of rubbish where i can just flush away n ppl wont suspect its an ezlink card anw. hah. waited n waited for almost 2 hours before everythng settled. crowded siaaa.

aftr dat go waited for daddy n ayie at 'tasik'(somewhere over d rainbow) . so, off we go to marina. jln damn far lah ek frm d stop we alight. k dah smpai, see like heaven punye crowded at d EW cinema. so off to suntec punye. bought tickets, mind u its ironman. if not want watch congkak but still "coming soon" so too bad lah ek daddy. hah xD movie at 6.30 but its still 5plus. so go mkn then ayie blanja us play arcade. eh, aku racing ace lah k ? tkya byk bunyi. hah. aftr arcade, see still got some time left, ayie want go smoke -.- . went out of suntec. nas, kau tkde lesen pe nk jage air liur ? HAHA. i thot its bird shit drop on my hand, pdhl pdhl .. :x we laugh2 like some bitches gtu sia. aiyo. k msok buy popcorns, nachos dan sbgnye .. daddy me n nas sit one row, sadded ayie hv to sit infront alone. movie started, nas go lempar2 popcorn. skali satu popcorn termelekat pt d person's head infront of me. bwahaha. tk rase lak tu.den while watching, she byk merepeks go put popcorn into my nose. fcuk u ! haha. lucky my nose not as big as d popcorn xD hmm. throughout, my hands felt real cold lah seh. freezing to almost-death. i wouldnt hv to worry much if u were to be there beside me huh, just like wad u alws did when we watch movies together. ok history -.- . hmm. skali i become like abit nervous when i felt something touch my left hand. paiseh siakkkk. it was him (: . he kept hold of my hands throughout till movie over. i felt warmth. haha whatever. but seriously, i really hoped someone would hv held my hands, and it just did happened. hw wonderful (:

k dunwan elaborate so much. ehem. ironman was kinda okay. i'd rate it 3 half ? aftr movie, go toilet lah kn. nas mcm2 lgy py lempar popcorn yg tk abes over d cubicle. skali paiseh she wrong lempar. deyy, i another cubicle lah -.- . HAHA.
kk its ald 9plus pm den received sms frm 'king' saying they otw to zamzam want eat thr . so i said why dun i go by myself since its kinda near. daddy n ayie sent us thr. nas joined me cos mum ask to bring her along. k lah, dwn thr cikna's family n nenek ade skali. whoa, my dad treat everyone uh ? chey. and nas kept on like sticking wif asyfa like long time knw each other ald. melayan eh kau bdk kecik. haha. k den aftr mkn, sent nas and off hm.

looking forward to next wk's cinema day. hahs. hold my hands again k ? :x
plus, also looking forward to genY work thingy during june hols. i love doing stuffs like dat. got salary ? cool (:

will post pics we took soon kay ? so long .. (:

my first post. so nth much to say, except to thank myself for setting up dis pathetic blog (:
do tag and link me up aite ppl. thanks.